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Graduation Day
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My little boy, Yahoshua, graduated from 5th grade yesterday. I was very excited and tearful at the same time. Although it's just him moving from elementary school to middle school it was emotional for me because it signaled change. He really isn't my "little boy" or "my baby" any longer. He is becoming a young man and will start to create his own life experiences and begin maturing in ways I can't imagine. It seems just the other day I was carrying him deep in my womb and singing and talking to him; wondering just what he would look like and who he would be. Now, here he is...growing up and changing right in front of my eyes. Amazing and beautiful at the same time. I'm so proud to be his mother and embrace the many other ceremonies in his life that will signal change.
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I gave birth to
Yums at home. It was an incredible experience. I was surrounded by a beautiful environment and was able to participate freely in my birthing process. As wonderful as it was there was pain....a lot of it! I used herbal tea as my pain killers. The pain was the pull my hair out, use a profound amount of profanity and call upon God to deliver me type of pain. At one point I felt as if I were being torn apart; shortly after that I felt this great expulsion and then blissful relief. Right after that moment I said...
ok, I can do this again! I gave birth to my son through a lot of pain and discomfort but it was completely worth it. I thought about this with our life experiences. There are times that we are in the midst of giving birth to
something great....confidence, a new beginning, security...but it's too painful. We are unable to get through the birthing process because it doesn't feel good. We don't want to deal with the discomfort, the anxiety, the gut wrenching hurt in order to make it to the other side. And the amazing thing is that
what we will birth will be beyond description. It will be
inexplicably beautiful. We will understand that we had to experience the
debilitating pain to bring forth new life. We are able to do it naturally. We don't need
prescription drugs or alcohol or some other distraction to make it through the process. We need to remember that no matter how much it hurts
in the moment, when the pain is over
there will be a new life.
