Yums has had 11 years getting to me. As he gets older our relationship will change with maturity, his life experiences and time. For plus one, he/she is getting to know me right now on an intrinsic level. He feels all that I do and experiences all of my pleasure and pain in utero.

I always say...should anything ever happen to me there are a few things I want my children to know and remember about me...

• they were not a mistake. i loved them from conception till my last day...
• i love to dance. and i can't dance.
• i love love to listen to music. even now i stand in front of the radio listening to something jazzy and hoping the baby is picking up the energy. when yums was a baby i danced with him close to my chest for years until he was a big boy and then we danced together all the time.
• i am silly. little things make me laugh.
• i adore the quirkiness in others. the things that make someone a little different i find very wonderful.
• little flaws i find beautiful.
• i cry very easily. more so now because i'm pregnant. but anything from the sound of the waves to the sound of my child's voice can move me to tears.
• i hurt easily....and hope my children don't inherit this. i wear my emotions on my sleeve and still have difficulty masking what i feel.
• i love to decorate. i tend to gravitate towards things that are eclectic. decorating centers me and puts me at peace.
• i don't practice a set religion. i was raised adventist. i have christian teachings thoroughly ingrained in me but i tend to be moved by more eastern philosophy. i believe in God/the Creator with everything. there is no question about that.
• spirit moves me.
• i am impulsive and don't always really think things through...like the time i bought my first SUV...went up to the dealership..test drove it..and away we went..i loved that rodeo!
• yums was my first real love. really.
• i love deeply. i've given my pearls to swine more times than i can count but my love experiences have shaped me into who i am today.
• i pray i age with grace and will be here to see my children grow up.....