I love my boyfriend and in essence that means I ought to naturally love his children..right? So I thought. After all, as beautiful and wonderful as he is, how could his offspring not be just the same. And as a mother already wouldn't I organically cleave to the little one's he made? Well, automatically...no. I didn't produce them from my body so the instantaneous oxyctocin that was released when I gave birth to my son isn't there. I have to produce it manually. His kids are coming for spring break and I have to admit it's intimitadating and overwhelming all at the same time. I've been around them enough to have a relationship but since I don't see them often I tend to at times feel like that "wicked stepmother." Beautiful children they are..full of life and mischief and all the things that make children..fun! But at times I wonder, will I fall in love with them naturally as we progress in our relationship? Will my heart be as full and hold them the way it holds Yums? Will they ever look at me as a friend and confidant and another adult who loves them? Or will they glare at me scorningly since I'm not their mother? *sigh* I prepare for their arrival, get fun activities in place and hope for a special spring break.